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Posted on Friday, May 7, 2010 at 4:28 PM

Going through e motions , again .

You're not worth losing my self esteem . your clever words means nothing more to me than a lot ive heard in a movie . you're not worth putting myself in these situations . i candy coat and cover everything that im still hiding underneath . it's been a long time . i dont lyke it , but its really worth doing it . also .. save your breath . ive got better things to do . yeah , study . english , mother tongue , social studies and science , both physics and chemistry . now its up to maths , design and tech and history . seriously , im actually studying this year .. never thought i would . seriously , if i told you that im studying , would you believe me ? of course not .. but this tyme , its real . im not sure if its good enough to pass the past few papers i took but , still i studied . and ive never been so happy about it .

Lately , ive been restless , everymorning , i just seem so hyper , even if its five in e morning . afternoon , cant seem to stop playing e comp , playing soccer down at e court and at nyte . i just cant sleep .. as soon as i feel asleep , i dream about being with a girl , happend quite a lot already . sometymes that girl seem to be someone i know , other tymes its a stranger . dreams are meant to be dreams ryte ? cause what i dreamt about .. i dont want that to happen .. cause, after having more than a dozen .. now then i know . love is just a teenage lie . a bunch of lies that can trick a person mind to fall in love .. that love is no more than just a plain crush . soon after , it shrinks . after that , its gone with e wind .. imma study first , if mid year is over .. im gonna really study what is love all about .. you all should too . i never wanted everything to end this way , but you seem take the bluest sky and turn it grey . it don't matter , im looking at everything from another point of view , i just don't know how the hell i fell in love with so many cruel people , including you . yeah , youre the worst . theres the greatest and the worst est . i threw e greatest and e worst est . im not proud of e greatest .. but e worst est , i wish i did it a long tyme ago .

Note to self .. if she said to you that she changed , screw it .. no girl will change fer a guy .