Cuts and bruises .

How weird can everything get when its near the mid-years ? i have been feeling guilty , lonely , troubled , disturbed and mostly , down .

somehow i become weak without you , i become vulnerable as i lost the love that could support me . all of this happend cause i calld the shot . heed this words .. as long as my eyes are open and until my heart stop beating , that is how long i can remember you .. but im going to act as if i dont know you anymore . i admit , from you , i found my life . fer me , you were my true love .. if what is written for me is the best fer me , it could be e best fer you too .. i'll just keep you as the best memory of my life fer now . im just lyke you , it is not easy fer me to erase that tracks that had been carved forever as the most precious memory of my life fer now ..

the happiest memories with you , we did crazy things , your laughter and smiles coming back to me .. please help me help you . even though you see me as who i am now .. thats not me , thats just me wearing a mask , a lot of them .. i know you dont want to get rid of those memories .. neither do i . but we have too .. its fer the best . i dont know whether i said it before or not , but .. im sorry . fer everything .