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Posted on Friday, May 29, 2009 at 3:50 PM

Holidays

lately i’ve been
relating my life
to a few songs
in a way that i
never have before,
and i find it strange.
of course,
it probably happened
to you too,
at least once,
since it is basically the
whole point of music.
but, listen to me.
it’s to a point where i
almost feel like
my life is a musical.
i’m not crazy,
i swear.
i just happen to find
those songs that i
can relate to so well,
i could stop talking
and simply play songs.
maybe it never happened
to me before for the
simple reason that i
never really cared
about the lyrics.
i usually like a song for
it’s music, or the singer.
everything is different now though,
i’m becoming obsessed with lyrics.
i want to find their meaning,
i want to know what’s really
behind them, and i want
to write my own.
is it possible to develop
a psychological dependency to words?
i wonder.

i’m done school, and i’m so glad i am.
this semester was terrible.
i considered dropping out of school
so many times over the past months,
i’m just not interested anymore.
i don’t have the motivation to keep going.
only two more semester,
after June holidays,
and then it’s finally over.
but not really?
i just wanna be me,
i just wanna do what
i wanna do when i want to,
i just wanna have my
little projects and use
all my time to work on them.
isn’t it what we all want though?
maybe, maybe not.
as much as i feel like
we’re all so different,
i also feel like we’re all the same.
in the end,
we all want the same thing,
whether we admit it or not.
and you wanna know how
i’ve been enjoying my first
few hours of vacation?
i slept for 2 hours. 2 hours. 2 hours!
well, i did a few things after that,
but nothing too groundbreaking.
i wake up, i shower, i eat and
now i'm just chatting on msn with my faizah (:
i’m not complaining, i love it.
i’m starting to feel a little weird though,
maybe because i need a break.
you can’t blame me.
and as though i feel like
i haven’t been productive,
i also feel like
i’ve been the most productive
i have been in forever.
i’ve read books,i’ve been meaning
to read for so long.
that’s quite productive to me.

i should start going out a little bit though,
after all, i’ve still got a month of vacation.
and, being sick is the worst thing now,
and i don’t wanna
get sick cause of the swine flu.
i’m making sure i’m
taking my vitamin c every morning.

i feel like this post doesn’t mean anything,
or doesn’t make any sense, i will stop here.